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What you should have said

  • Writer: Courtney Casteel
    Courtney Casteel
  • Apr 24, 2020
  • 1 min read

"Don't block it out, don't cut so it stops, don't drink yourself numb. Just sit and let it rip you apart. And then get up and keep breathing. One day at a time. Wake up and be shredded. Cry for a while and then stop crying and go about your day. You're not okay, but you're alive, and you will be okay someday."


"You make it sound so easy... Like everything will all fall into place, but it never does. Everything just crumbles all around me. I'm tired of waiting for someday. I want it to happen now." She said with tears streaming down her face.


"And I understand that, but good things take time, my dear. You have to wait. So what if he didn't come back? So what if he moved on? So what if he justifies himself by being with other girls? That's him. Do YOU. Be YOU. Worry about YOU. Do you think he worries himself to sleep over losing you? You may wish or think he does, but he doesn't. He may still love you but you need to stop reading the same book. Go over your favorite chapters, but pick up a new one for God sakes. I'm tired of you watching you drown yourself in alcohol and self-harm because you feel lonely. You're not lonely. You have me and most of all you have yourself. I love you to death, but stop wasting your time on someone who didn't know how to love you right."

 
 
 

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