An open letter to my ex best friend

Dear old friend,

I admit writing this is a little hard. I'm not sure if you will read this, and if you do, I'm sure I'll end up in some group chat talking about how pathetic I must be. I found you all on my own and we had some great times together. You made me smile and laugh through some of my hardest times without trying.

I am really grateful for that. Though I am a different person now, and I'm sure you are too. I am just so thankful you were part of making me who I am today.

The hardest part about this is that I really don't know what to write. Most friendships I've had that ended, ended because of a huge fight or something that causes communication to end ... but not for us. Our friendship just ended. Abruptly. Which is why it hurt so badly. There was no closure. No goodbye. In many cases when a friendship ends, it's a mutual agreement. People grow apart and don't want to be friends anymore. This was different.

One day we were close and the next we weren't. Sometimes I think what did I do wrong? It hurts. Losing you hurt me a lot and I'm not quite sure you know that.

You were my first real best friend. With others, I had to be something I had to be something I wasn't. The people I considered my friends were anything but. They treated me terribly and used me.

But then I met you. You helped me become me. You helped me understand I could be myself and screw anyone who didn't like me for that. My goofy self doesn't need to change to fit into society. Although you didn't completely teach me to love myself (that took some more work), you did help. Thank you for being my friend.

You're the friend I lost, so you would think that I would be bitter towards you or want the worst for you. If you're reading this (and I hope you are) I want you to know that I want the best for you. You are one of the best people I've met. You were my best friend, my sister, my personal comedian, and mom all in one.

Even though you won't be by my side at my wedding like I'd once hoped I just wanna let you know I am so proud of you and everything you've accomplished. I know you are going to do great things in your life and someday accomplish all your dreams.

Though I won't be by your side and you won't be by mine throughout this journey I just want you to know I love you and you are still very important to me. If you ever need anything, let me know. I can never explain how much you changed me.

When I started writing this letter I was afraid it would be bitter but instead, it has turned into an open thank you letter. That's because I am thankful for you. Even though we may not be close anymore, I thank you for everything.

You were my first real best friend. With others, I had to be something I had to be something I wasn't. The people I considered my friends were anything but. They treated me terribly and used me.r you. You are one of the best people I've met. You were my best friend, my sister, my personal comedian, and mom all in one.